Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in Sarica37's LiveJournal:

Friday, November 9th, 2001
2:02 pm	Yeah so yesterday was pretty good. Stayed after to start doing Peer Mediation with Joy and Sam....omg the people who are supposed to Mediate will prolly be the ones needing it, they are straight up fuckin crazies!! What did we get ourselves into girls?! Then we were gonna go up to DECA and got a picture taken for the yearbook, none of us were ready though, damn them. I got picked up by my cousin Kree, which is always fun, we hung out at my house for a bit, ordered up some pizza then went to the mall to go shopping for her lil trip to Albany this weekend. I saw some really cute stuff but since I dont have any money I couldnt buy a damn thing. After the mall we came back to my house to see if Lynn was gonna come to get Carolann, but she wasnt home so we left, it started pooring so we went in to Carol's work, got some food and Carol of course, then went to Kree's. She packed we got ready and went to get Carol's stuff at her house. Then went to Wegman's to get some movies (Save the Last Dance and Valentine, but Valentine was broken). We got home ate some more pizza and ice cream. My AWESOME cousin B.J. called and that is always interesting. We watched save the last dance and Carol and I fell asleep, and Jess left and went to sleep. This morning we ate breakfast and had a great time talkin and laughing. We have to do that again when my cuz Kate gets here from TN. We went to Romp.com and saw some funny shit about this dude named Jake and him wanting to get laid. I highly recommend going to it, if you have a mind like we do!! hehe :)Kree and Carol just left so now I think I'm gonna go get ready, tonight I'm going with Lynn and Mel to the show at the hs. Peace out, Cheerio! *~*Sarah*~* Current Mood: devious (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 3rd, 2001
2:40 pm	Umm k Yes well, who is going to the cotillion?! Very good, I want to go I dont get it, if you could go why wouldnt you want to...hmm...lets think about it shall we...We always want what we cant have, and I cant go unless I'm asked, now those people at the hs, the can have it, so they dont want it as much. Fools, all the people who are going, fools! hehe Whats with guys and cheating, I mean seriously, they are lucky to have the girl they are with, and then they cheat on her...hmm can we say prick! Then the girl stays with him because she "love him" and he "loves her, she is the only one he wants" bullshit, if that was true then he wouldnt have done it, especially more than once. And what the fuck is with guys thinking they can just grab at girls whenever they want, I mean hello, do we have signs on saying, "grab at me", no I dont think so. Then when we hit them in the balls they think it is one big fucking joke so they grab your chest...I'll say it again I dont think so! and of course...they are pricks. On a happier note, I figured out that a 65 is passing in course 2 and I have an 80....which is alright I guess. I went to the mall last night with Lynn and Kree, fun times, I bought a pair of really cute jeans, if I had more money I would have bought the other pair I tried on, they were dark blue with blue sparkles, and looked really cute on me. I have also decided that I want a job, cause I need to get some money, cause I'm going through a serious cash drout at the moment...ok that is all for now. How was your Halloween?!?! *~*Love*~* *~Sari~* Current Mood: chipper (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 20th, 2001
9:34 pm	Lonely I dont know why I try anymore, I feel so alone, day and night, night and day. It feels like someone is sqeezing at my heart and I cant break free, I cant catch my breath, I dont know if everything will be alright even though you tell me it will, I need to get out, need to be free, have to move, have scream, what if I cant, what if it doesn't work? Everything just seems so fucked up right now, I dont know how to make it better, I cant even talk to my own family, they cant talk to me...I want a vacation, I need a vaction, from school, from family, friends...just life in general. And the worst part is I know I cant have it, people are counting on me to do the right thing, get the homework in on time, do it right, pass the tests, read the books, deal with the problems, take out the garbage, clean your room, sweep the floor, brush the dogs...What too much for you to handle in one day? Alright, how about I add a few more things for you to do, go play in a game win, go be the best you can be in gym class...oh no, now it is Physical Education with packets and homework....well fuck them, fuck the school, fuck the teachers....your life was harder as a kid? really well spend a week in my shoes...they will get too tight for you by the second day I gaurantee it!!! Have you ever wanted something so badly in life, you know it will help you, and you cant have it, then you think that something is keeping it from you...and you get mad because you dont have it, and you cant stop the wanting...so much that it hurts you. But you cant stop wanting, cant stop hoping, and all the while you feel so alone. It's over and donebut the heartache lives on inside And who's the one you're clinging toinstead of me tonight? And where are you now, now that I need you?Tears on my pillow wherever you go I'll cry me a river that leads to your oceanYou never see me fall apart In the words of a broken heartIt's just emotion that's taken me over Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soulBut if you don't come back Come home to me, darlingDont you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight Dont cha know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight Goodnight, goodnightI'm there at your side,I'm part of all the things you are But you've got a part of someone elseYou've got to find your shining star And where are you now, now that I need you?Tears on my pillow wherever you go I'll cry me a river that leads to your oceanYou never see me fall apart In the words of a broken heartIt's just emotion that's taken me over Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soulBut if you don't come back Come home to me, darlingDont you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tightNobody left in this world to kiss goodnightGoodnight, goodnight And where are you now, now that I need you?Tears on my pillow wherever you go I'll cry me a river that leads to your oceanYou never see me fall apart In the words of a broken heartIt's just emotion that's taken me over Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soulBut if you don't come back Come home to me, darlingNobody left in this worldto hold me tight Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnightGoodnight, goodnight There is a lot more to say, but I cant yet because I dont understand any of it, and as far as I'm concerned life is fucked up and right now I wanna go into a cave like Binladen so I wont have to deal with the assholes of the world. *~Sarah~* Current Mood: lonely (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 17th, 2001
10:26 pm	Why does life have to be so hard?.... Well I'm in an absolutely awful mood, so i decided that i would write a quick journal entry before going to bed. I have Science first period with just...bad people! Heather Furbeck, Felicia Burghart, Johanna Abbrams, Adam Goodrich, and a couple other just odd people. And those 3 girls are always yelling stuff and steve wright being the funny kid that he is, has to comment and make fun of them, which makes me laugh of course. I must admit i used to be mean along with him, but then ya know, i didnt really wanna fail that class, so i decided to move my seat and just shut up, which if you know me, is REALLY HARD!!!! But the teacher is seriously just like a fuckin idiot, Mr. Keough has never sent anyone out of the room, no referals NOTHING I wanna go up to him and say listen up asshole, maybe you dont see a fuckin problem but with more than half the class not knowing a goddamn thing you are trying to teach, YOU HAVE TO SEND THEM OUT!!! Omg, i was sooo close to just walking out of the room and going to the office just to have a lil chat with Eddie A.....I mean dude, I do not stand for such behavior...and not to mention that mon. and wed. i have to go through that first and second period for sciece and lab, with the same damn people, same room, same teacher, it is awful!!! i dont know what they are thinking, sometimes i really just think these teachers are assholes and mean to be! Ok Monday night i cut my leg shaving really really bad, i took a layer or two of skin off, it bled for ever, it is really hurting and I have to play soccer with this.....ok when i play soccer i dont play fair...i like to grab the peoples shirts...i see no problem with this...so fuckin scholl is like "dont give me that we see how you shave your legs" i wanted to say "and we see how you shave your head!" sometimes she really pisses me off...i mean, what the fuck, they say not to be mean to people, be nice to everyone....HELLO dont they think that applies to them also? yeah whatever, the school is turning into a hypocritical cult! Happier news: I got a 10/10 on my spanish speaking test thing, and 100 on my math quiz....I went to open gym tonight, its pretty fun we play volleyball tuesday and wednesday...i'm gonna go out for the team, the lady was really nice and said i have a lot of power, my serves were good, but my return is just so...not there yet....its good but like, it could use perfecting, like everything!!! Ok quick entry turned into me bitching so i'm off to bed now, adios chicas y chicos! *~Isabel~* Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Friday, October 12th, 2001
10:47 pm	Uh huh Well i havent written in about a week, but nothing much really happened. Lemme see, Monday we had the day off so I did nothing, just hung out and watched a movie, Tuesday was the last day of tennis, and we were supposed to have the end of season party on Wednesday but now it is gonna be Monday. We are having Chinese food, I cant wait, I'm gonna get orange chicken and fried rice!!! I was supposed to get Lauren's order I guess, but I didnt know I was supposed to, so now the coach is mad at me or something, oh well fuck her, if she doesnt wanna contact Lauren herself it isnt my responsibility. Wed. was pretty boring, didnt really do anything. Thursday was fun though, I went horseback riding with my aunt and sister, Jess is like, a pro, she looked great on it. I liked when the horse would walk, it was so peaceful riding it then, and having Mahogony cuddle his head in your neck and breathe was so cute. Then a horse Emma started playing a game with me and she would rub her chin on my hand and it was adorable. Marcus was a blind horse, soooo cute, cause he looks so cute and doesnt really know where you are so you have to talk to him. We got to feed the horses apples and Mahogony got apples and carrots cause he is my aunt's horse and we are allowed to spoil him!! hehe Today nothing much happened, I fould out I'm doing bad in math and not so hot in science, but i dont care. i got my bottom braces on thursday and they hurt now, but i'm gettin them off in like 6 months or so. that is good, i cant wait, but now i'm off to bed. *~Sarah~* Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Friday, October 5th, 2001
9:46 pm	The Last Couple Of Days..... Hey, I havent written in here for a few days, and since I have nothing to do tonight I'm gonna. Wednesday we had a match against Liverpool, they beat us, but thats ok there coach is 19 his name is John and he is totally hott!! Maria~lets see there is fuckable, material, make out; and hottie goes with all...haha I'll only go out with him if he is fuckable, if not, its just friends baby!!! lol Maria...see what these bus rides do to us?!?! Thursday I had practice, I did pretty good serving and we played ultimate tennis against the wall (maria lauren and i rule at that!!) and Slick got pegged with a ball my Amanda so her eye was hurting a bit, but all is well once again. Then later on I went to the 7th grade parent night to sell sweatshirts and pencils with Tom and Kristyna...that was ok cause we each got a sweatshirt from Mr. Mohorter. Some weird fat lady was like telling us her life story(TOm missed it cause he went home at 8, the loser!!! hehe j/k Tommy) Today was alright, school but no practice, then the game tonight, we lost of course!!! Jess Mel and I did a bit of talking cause things arent exactly kosher with all of us right now, but I'm sure things will get worked out later on. I talked to Bobby Martin on the phone tonight, he is one of the hottest guys in the world!!! His voice is so unique, and he has brown hair, dark skin...omg he is the definition of beatiful. But of course I'm still Patrick's stalker, that wont change for a while...but ya see, I've liked Bobby since I was really little and he is too old for me, Patrick is not!!! hehe alright that is all for now, adios kids. *~Sarah~* Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2001
11:57 am	HELLO..... Hello everyone, I havent written in here for a while so I decided now would be a good time. Last night I watched City Of Angels and Object Of My Affection....wow, such great movies, they are my new two favs. I cried soooo much watching both of them because they are so sad and funny at the same time. I went to my grandparents for my Grandfather's 79th birthday. I cant believe he is 79, I think about how many things he has been through in his life and all of the things he has seen and it is just amazing to me. Being in WWII he changed our name from Picarello to Picarel I would really like it to go back to the way it was. I dont think it ever will though, and definitely not while he is still alive...that would crush him I think, too many memories of everything. He has been soooo many places, he lived in Virginia, Cali, Ny and I dont even know all the other places...not to mention the countries he went to during the War. Friday I was supposed to have a tennis match in Oswego, but when we got there the coaches decided it was unsafe to play on the courts so we had to drive all the way back home. Friday night I did nothing but watch a ton of tv cause my computer was being stupid and I couldnt get online. But then being the smart person I am I fixed it by plugging in the internet connection and keyboard!!! hehe Who knew those things came unplugged?! Today my mom is making me clean the house and my room! ugh, I really hate that...but oh well. I'll probably watch some tv and of course do my hw. I want to go to the mall, I havent been there in sooo long, I need to shop! hehe I'm addicted :o) I didnt go to the gaurd show this weekend but I was thinking of them(especially you know who!!) ;) And I cant believe Melly didnt cheer for him, I mean jeez, I wasnt there to do it so no one did?! Its craziness. OH yeah, and Friday we had to do the mile thing at the hs...I WALKED and Jogged the whole way, I refused to run at all, I think it is crazy and I didnt feel like I had to..I got 11min 27sec...Not the greatest time granted, but considering I didnt try, and I dont care, I think its perfect! hehe :O) OH and there is only like a week or two left of tennis, which is ok, I should really go golfing sometime before it closes or the weather is to bad to go...hmm I'll have to do that. Melly you me Jess and someone else should go!!! Halloween is coming soon, which also means that snow will come along with it...and I will get to go skiing, maybe I'll try snowboarding again this year....hehe that is soo much fun. Now I must go and get ready...feel free to IM me or leave a COMMENT!!! *~Sarbear~* Current Mood: giddy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 26th, 2001
10:01 pm	yeah Yes well today we played CNS, they are undefeated and needless to say they kicked our ass! Its not all bad though, cause after the game we went to McDonalds....In school we went to the falls and did some stream measuring thing and Margret and I were having great fun making fun of Jake and Gabe...hehe I have no idea what I'm gonna do this weekend, but I'm thinking of redecorating my bathroom, and maybe getting some pictures to put up in my room....so I might just have to do some painting!! hehe And of course I have to decorate and personalize my bandanas!!! I have four new really cute ones, purple, pink, blue, and a blue flowery one. I just got done doing an essay and a lab, I feel sooo much better knowing they are done, and I really dont care how I do on them, cause I tried...I think that should be enough personally....maybe it is a bad thing I dont care so much about how I'm graded, cause I do work hard on the shit I do......I guess I'm just taking after my sister. Well, my ear really hurts to I'm gonna go to bed. Night kids!! *~Lil Pic~* Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 24th, 2001
7:31 pm	Well Pat just got online, I read his journal, he is still sick. I feel bad for him...his journal entry is so funny though, he watched Titanic(I love that movie) and it was on the sex scene(I wanna do that part with him, hehe j/k lol Melis sunshine right?) and he laughed so hard he threw up, so that part sucks. Last night with Melis and I talkin was soooo funny!!! Showers...candles...hahaha naughty sunshine right Mel? hehe Yeah, some of the convo is in her journal so you should read that if you wanna know more ;) My match for tennis was cancelled today due to the very icky rain that has not stopped yet. Very grr!! We got our sweatshirts today, mine says Sarica37 cause we all did something other than our real name on it, I was gonna do Anna Cornekova cause that is my nickname for tennis, but as you can see I dunno how to spell it! hehe. Old Buffy shows are on ch 21 7-8 hehe I love that show!!! I wanted to be like that when I was younger, I actually believed that there were vampires and I made my own little stakes and everything!! hehe, I'm such a dork. But thats ok ya love me anyway right?! :o) Ok time to go watch more tv IM me if ya wanna talk *~Sari~* Current Mood: horny (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 23rd, 2001
8:05 pm	Oh boy, Krock...showers...doors in the dark! lol Melis. I never knew what a dirty little devil she was, hell...hades...NO AIR CONDITIONING!!! hahaha Melis and I should write a book, but it would be very long, with very juicy part..educating right Mel? hehe See..I needa get a guy, cause its really bothering me not havin one, but the only people that actually like me, I dont like in the same way. So my love life is non-existent...I needa find it. I'm watching Message In A Bottle, and talkin to Melis, gettin some juicy details! hehe I think it would be soo romantic to find a letter about someone losing the love of his life...that is just like whoa! Ok I'm sure I'll write more later, but for now, adios. ~Sarah~ Current Mood: mischievous (Comment on this)
1:56 pm	Well, last night was fun. I went to the gaurd show in Oswego, ESM didnt win but thats ok they still did good. Patrick's solo was once again excellent!! Steph is now "Big Red" because of her hair, I think it looks great on her. Some Mark kid followed us around at the end of the show and at the hs, he told Melis I was hot...but he is soo not my type. Hehe, going to McDonalds with the Bucks is always an adventure, something is always going on and there are always things to talk about! When I got home Brad IMed me and said that Luke told him I didnt like his hair, but I didnt say that, I said I liked it better before he cut it. So that is very disappointing that Luke went behind my back and told Brad something that I told him not to say, which just goes to prove that I cant trust him. :o( But of course Melis my sunshine cheered me up! hehe She spent the night and that was great fun, althought I fell asleep so I dont remember most of it. And I found out Patrick has another stalker, which just goes to show that someone else shares my opinion about him, which is that he is a total cutie. I guess thats all for now *Sar* Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Friday, September 21st, 2001
9:34 pm	hmm..... I went to McDonalds with Melis and Jess tonight and I came up with a theory while we were eating and talking. In like you wanna be happy. In doing so you want to go out with the person you like because you think that they will make you happy. But then you cant go out with them because they have someone else or just dont want you. But when you do go out with them and they arent what you thought, so you are where you started off...NOT HAPPY!! So if that doesnt completely depress you all then i dunno what will, cause it sure makes me feel like shit. I talked to andrew tonight, he says we are too good of freinds to go out...yeah sound like an excuse? most definitely, and that makes me unhappy...and on the way home from McD's Jess and Melis were explaining to me how Patrick has to trust people in order to be friends with them...and how he always acts horny online...which is normally how I am. But when i talk to him i am "nice" cause i was told not to scare him and i would never wanna make him feel uncomfy, cause i know i really hate that!! There are sooo many things going on right now, it all just seems like it isnt worth it. Melis and i are seriously like fricken geniuses!!! Sarica37 (9:56:27 PM): you feel so much better when you have someone to go out with Lilcutemouse (9:56:52 PM): yes i can def. agree w/ ya there! Lilcutemouse (9:57:07 PM): u feel loved..and wanted..and needed Sarica37 (9:57:50 PM): and you have someone to hug and kiss Isnt that sooo true...if you dont think so then you are not a genius like we are. I've decided that Miss Newell is one of the coolest teachers because she said she would run the mile with me at the highschool on Friday during second period and I'm gonna try my best to really make sure she does it. I plan on walking it, but maybe i'll go a lil faster if she is there. I hate gym sooo much, i want all the teachers to go out and have to do that, Ms. Quigley says that school is our job...well hello I dont see you out there running Ms. Bigtime V-P...and I didnt think I was training to be a pro athlete so techinically i disagree with them saying school is my job. people in the world get to choose their jobs, i didnt get to choose running a mile now did i? tomorrow should be fun, i'm supposed to go to the gaurd show in oswego with melis and that will be great fun and i'll cheer for patrick of course cause he has his own little flag thing in the beginning, it is sooo neat to watch! i am like.."how do they do it!" but at these things i'm a bit cridical, but i can just see when people drop stuff, and i would make a really great judge!! hehe :o) I suppose that is all for now *~Sarah~* Current Mood: aggravated (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 20th, 2001
6:20 pm	hmm.... Well I went to school today, it kinda sucked cause i thought i was gonna fall asleep in half my classes! My match against henniger got cancelled but thats ok cause i didnt really wanna play today. It was rainy and wet, and they made us play football outside again! omg i hate that, i wanna tell the teachers to shove it! On another note, not sure if it is good or bad...Andrew and Santanna broke up..which i think is a good thing because he is completely gorgeous. we flirt, but he also flirts with a bunch of other girls...i said i liked pat and i do, but whats the point in liking someone if they dont talk to you and if they dont like you back?? there really isnt one, it is just depressing as hell! but i dont quite know if andrew likes me back and it is all just one big confusing mess we call LIFE!!! very grr to that....this year is a bit stressful already can you believe it? we are only into like the third week...ahhhh i dunno, maybe things will get better...i sure hope so anyway that is all for right now *~Sar~* Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 19th, 2001
9:21 pm	I'm SICK! Well, today I stayed home from school because i'm not feeling very well. I have a soar throat and my ears hurt and i am aching all over. That really really sucks but i'll deal with it. My sis doesnt feel good and Steph is home sick as well, are we seeing a pattern here? I thought so...everyone is getting sick. I was talkin to Mel, and pat knows i think he is cute, but when i met him sat. he has yet to say anything about me, which could only mean that he doesnt like what he sees. obviously i was expecting this since it is not the first time it has happened. oh well, life sucks, that has been proven by last weeks events. Mel is gonna ask him, so then i can prove that he doesnt think i'm his type, cause at first when he found out i kinda liked him he said i was too young...two years difference two young? nice excuse but i'm too smart for that shit, telling the truth is better than lying and hurting, dont you agree? thats what i though! On to happier things. I went shopping with my mom today and she bought me 4 bandanas...very cute ones, blue, purple, pink, and a flowery blue one. i'm gonna decorate them with gem things after i wash em. tomorrow we play henniger and we will prolly lose cause we always do, good grr to that. but soon we will get our tennis sweat shirts so that is pretty hott. What is up with gym class nowadays? I mean really...giving us 40 pg packets...hello am i the only one that sees a problem with this? and running a mile...playing football...i dont see those boys having to do cheerleading, why should i have to play football....and the pacer, i think not, i refuse to try for that thing just so i can be sweaty and feel like shit the rest of the day. not to mention that i have gym second period so my hair will be doomed for the rest of the day. eventually things will get so far out of hand they will come up with a better solution, but that my friends will not be this year i dont believe. ok i'm feeling a bit dizzy at the moment so i'm off to bed, night kids ~Sarah~ Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Monday, September 17th, 2001
7:04 pm	I tried updating this earlier but i dont think it worked so i'm doing it again. We lost our match today against West Genesee, tomorrow we play Liverpool, I hope we win but prolly wont. Oh well! Bucky has to get better soon, cause we need her back. that is about all for today i'll write later ~Sar~ (Comment on this)
6:55 pm	Lost again.... Well, we played West Genesee today and we lost again. But thats ok, tomorrow we play Liverpool, we will prolly lose cause they are always good at everything, damn them! I had some really good serves today, but I couldnt do my backhand very well. Andrew and Santanna broke up, I knew it wouldnt last, but I kept my mouth shut Melis, it was a first! haha Buckles of Joy, how are you sick I need you to come back soon babes!!! And I hope you feel better really soon. According to Jake Andrew and Adam are my bitches, so they have to do as I SAY!!!! ;)hehe ok dinner time now byebye ~Sarah~ Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 16th, 2001
9:48 pm	Well I forgot my lab, so I think I might get a detention now. But I mean come on, they expect me to remember when it was assigned on Wednesday!!! It is crazy. I have decided that my teachers are ok, but they all seem to make up their own words, I mean come on! It is nuts, and what is with all of these bomb threats?! Very grr... Melis and Colleen, I wanna molest him, lol don't ask, long night!! hmm...how bout that shower!!! haha lil melly!!! Steph, we cant miss tomorrow no matter how sick we are!! Damn gaurd shows in the cold...:0( Ok time to watch Jaws and go to bed, nighty night kids *Sar~Bear*;) Current Mood: flirty (1 Comment |Comment on this)
10:36 am	First one! Well, I decided last night that everyone seems to have these now, so I too have one now!! For the second week I have gone to the gaurd competition and it is sooo neat to watch. Last night it was at CNS and they won. I went to Buck's with my sis and Jill afterward, omg sooo fun!!! Melis's mom is awesome, and Colleen says whatever. Jill and Steph, assholes 1,2,and 3!!! I met Pat for the first time,and I found out that he thinks I'm a stalker!! and doesnt think I like his personality, not true he seems very nice! Hmm...what else happened, oh yeah! Melis walked right into a door!!! hahaha, that was great. I dunno what else to write right now, so I'm gonna go! Current Mood: flirty (2 Comments |Comment on this)